Monday, July 20, 2009

Our Wish.

Lily's wish to go to Disney World has been granted. We will be going in September. Phil and I are overwhelmed by the generosity of this gift. It has been a constant throughout this process, an incentive when the going got tough- a reward for getting through when the going got tough- and a beacon of light for our little family that every day was forced to get tougher. I never thought there would be a down side to it.

I have been also humbled by the support and interest so many have shown in being a part of this wish trip. So many who just want the chance to give us the hugs, distance has not allowed over the past year. I truly do not wish to hurt the feelings of those who selflessly offer their support and love, but others are not so selfless. I can't tell you how much consideration and thought we have given this. I have gotten earfuls from different sources. Which led me to my decision. A decision a good friend of mine offered up 2 days after I told her of the wish trip many months ago. We have depleted our emotional resources during the past year. We have tried to grasp moments of fun and rest whenever possible- but I have no idea how long it will take us to recharge. All I know is that we need a vacation. We need to get away from our immediate responsibilities and obligations and regroup, reconnect, and refuel. As much as I would love to have a reunion with our many supporters- this vacation is not the time or the place. I don't want to plan it, nor would I like anyone else to plan it for us- we just want to be us and go with the flow. The more fish swimming around us- the less likely we will be able to go in the direction we want. The six of us have all sacrificed a lot of ourselves throughout this process. Phil and I have had to let certain aspects of our relationship and our relationships with our kids to slide or be pushed aside, merely to survive daily life of dealing with cancer. We have a lot of catching up to do with each other and with them. We will at another time welcome, cherish and help coordinate visits from friends and family. But for this trip, we are kindly requesting to be allowed the time and space to put the pieces back together during this trip.

1 comment:

  1. Bravo Jen. I am sure everyone can appreciate your need to carve out some family time for your crew. Enjoy your trip and continue to take care of yourself.
    - Kristi G.


Lily Kay Monkey

Lily Kay Monkey
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